Day 02 - Where Would I like to be in 10 years
I’ll be 30 by then and if I haven’t done the right thing by then, so-God-help-me what the fuck is wrong with you Habibah Hermanadi. Where would I want to be when I am 30?
I am going to translate the word ‘where’ into a state of place, position (as in career), and how my life would be in general within the next 10 years.
I want to have an office, in a university, with a desk that pointed me as one of its distinguished lecturer. I want to drive on my own, pick my children up for lunch at the office, repeatedly asking them to forgive me because they have to stay in mommy’s office, asked them how their days went .. perhaps I’d let them hang with my assistant for a while, let them do their homework in my office, and when the day is done ..
we’ll go home. I’d continue working on my research and paperwork in the living room and within 2 hours my husband will be home. He had a long day, he kissed my beloved children, sit directly on the living room. He kissed me and said “what’s for dinner?” and I’d be like “ aaa .. I was too busy working, but don’t worry, I’ll whip something out.” I ran into the kitchen, as my husband will pout, but he never complained about my daily work-oriented habit, he knew balancing everything is a little bit hard but he accepted my effort.
Where would we live? Hopefully, somewhere in the United Kingdom. Yes, I am dying to go back to UK. DYING. But, living in Indonesia wouldn’t be so bad. I just want to live where there’s a good university to work at. Because a good academic environment makes me happy. We’d travel in packs, always have to (unless my Husband and I wanted to take some time off just the two of us, then off the kids go to their grandparents) .. perhaps I would not travel much due to my career; however if I have to attend seminars or to do guest lecturing somewhere then we will have to travel in pack. If my husband could not come, then I must take my kids. School is as important as experience, and I must say that when I got to travel with my dad or my mom due to working reasons it was so much fun.
If I have not fulfilled my true dream of becoming Wife-mom-lecturer-researcher-dream, I want to be half way there by then. At the very least I have achieved one of the traits from that wife-mom-lecturer-researcher-dream.
I want to be busy and exhausted all the time. Knowing that I have loved everything to the fullest. I have loved science and knowledge to the fullest, my children to the fullest, my husband, my life partner, my khalifa to the fullest, my Deity to whom I owe everything to the fullest. I want to live to my fullest in 10 years. I want to love, I want to serve, I want to keep on doing what I am good at, bubbly and enlightened.